Apologies, Hopes and Dreams

We live through ups and downs. So, it is not fair to judge if a year is more devastating than the other or vice versa. It is fair to simply say "LIFE ISN'T FAIR". Huhu.

Like a tradition, before the year ends, we take a moment to reflect on our life for the year, and I often find myself burden with guilt. Ahaa, proven guilty is a proof of misbehave! Guilt kills. Therefore, I would like to apologize to several people.

• Mum. For not being a better child. I love you. I'm sorry for everything I couldn't do/provide.
• Any friends who had been offended by my words/behaviors/actions, sorry! I'm sure I didn't mean any of it!
• The ex-boyfriend. I'm sorry for leaving you. You don't deserve me. I don't know if anyone ever deserve me.
• My beloved cousin, I didn't know I was putting you into so much trouble. You must hate me for that. I'm so sorry. You're still the cousin I adore.
• Grandma, I'm sorry if I still bring tears to you even though you're in heaven. I'm trying my best grandma.

I don't make resolutions when New Year arrives because I don't believe in them. Resolutions are bound to break, just like rules. In fact, I find a friend's resolution interesting - to fulfill last year's resolution. Stylo Milo I tell you! Haha.

Therefore, I choose to only hope and dream. Huhu. The list as following:

• I hope to have a fatter paycheck. Ahaa. Who doesn't??
• I dream of changing job. It's due.
• I dream of a stress-free life. This would NEVER happen!
• I hope the satan dies, if possible in the first quarter of '09. Yeahh, watever you think of me.
• I hope my brother would perform his best in SPM. Oh wait, that's not mine to hope for! Dem you bro!
• I dream of getting married, heck, I mean, boyfriend. Haha.
• I hope to donate blood. Failed several times before due to unhealthy blood. Fingers crossed this time.
• I hope to visit my favourite country. Fingers crossed - again.

Not much of a list eh? BEAT IT. I don't really take a New Year seriously. Every morning is the beginning of something new.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

Hari Malas

Hari ini rase sangat malas. Golek2 atas katil, bace blog org len. Nak update blog sendiri, tp xde idea. [Kamu] kate, update la perihal aktiviti liar semalam. Yer, kami meLIAR semalam. Dari Tekala, ke Gabai, ke Air Panas. Haha. Main2 air ajew la! Korang pikir aper haa? haa? haa?!! *Saje nk suspen*

Tibe2, aku terpikirkan Corndog. Haihh. Beliau ni dah la merosakkan kepala aku tentang lelaki2 encem, tapi aku still layan gak kepale biol beliau. Kunun2 segan nak masuk air. Sekali dah masuk, TAKMAU KELUAR! Memang seswai la dgn jiwa kamu wahai budak Kecik! Ohh, adakah aku baru saja kantoikan siapa Corndog?? Kwang3~

Eh, jap, jap. Bukan ke Corndog tu watak jahat dalam blog aku nih?? Apsal aku layan jek dia main air semalam tu?? Ahh, nak wat camne, aku kan budak baik! Ahaa. Suke lah puji diri sendiri!

Antara Tekala dan Gabai, len kali, korang pilih la Gabai yer! Psst, bdk2 liar nih tak reti pilih port. Eheh. Ampun ya bdk2 liar. Tapi aku memang suke Gabai dari dulu lagi. Tekala tu ramai sangat pengunjung. Dan tiada air terjun. Dan tiada tempat meluncur. *Komplen, komplen*

Ohh, tapi aku suke tengok muke Corndog yang bengang sbb kene naik tangga ala2 Batu Caves kat Gabai. Pergh. PADAN MUKE KO! Lalala~

Eh, Hari Malas kalu translate pi Bahasa Inggeris jadi Lazy Day, kan? Apakah ia sama maksud dengan DO NOTHING DAY? Huhu.

Erm, aku takmau lah same kan ia. Sebab Do Nothing Day harus dilakukan bersama kawan, yakni lepak2 dengan kawan tanpa melakukan sebarang aktiviti. Psst, lepak tu kira aktiviti ke??

Kalu Hari Malas, malas sorg2 jek. Macam aku skang nih. Haha.

Alamak. Aku lupa nak pi ofiz bukak server siot! Camne weh?? Ahh, MALAS! Kamu2 di Eropah, tak perlu anta emel tanya pasal ketiadaan server besok yer. Aku MALAS nk layan emel korg! Bluwekk~ *emo tetibe*

Dah lah. Lapa.

[Kamu] gastrik lagi? Tunggu seminggu baru sembuh bai! Lol, sejak bile aku gune 'bai'?? CHEE-LAh-NUT btol sape ajar aku nih??!!

Zzz.
Bile lapa, tido. Bila ngantuk, makan. Yeahh!! That's the way, ah-ha, ah-ha!

* Ergh!! Ape aku tengah taip nih??

The Wallet

Got tagged by Ammar. Ahaa, your personal blog got busted here and now!

Here it goes.

1. Snap the picture of both inner and outer of your wallet.


2. Introduce your wallet brand, price, and where you bought it.
It's a MilkTeddy. Got this for RM15, I think. You get this plenty in shopping malls. I got mine in Kuantan Parade, I think. Haha.

3. Take out what ever is inside your wallet ( at least 5 pictures).
ROCK THE WORLD 8 TICKET - very, very important to highlight; for an anonymous moron who needed proof.


4. Snap a picture of your wallet with yourself.
I know, I know. Why not a photograph of my pretty face? It didn't specifically say FACE, did it? Ahaa. So, my hand would do.


5. Tag 5 other persons.
Ammar and CikPin had tagged all my friends from the real world, so I'm left to tag people from the cyber world. I'd like to tag Bob, Kickdafella, Kak Yasmin, Abg Khir, and Uncle Mahathir. Haha. LIKE THEY CARE.

Bedtime Stories Movie Review

"Skeeter Bronson (Adam Sandler), is a hotel handyman whose life is changed forever when the bedtime stories he tells his niece and nephew start to mysteriously come true. He attempts to take advantage of the phenomenon, incorporating his own aspirations into one outlandish tale after another, but it's the kids' unexpected contributions that turn Skeeter's life upside down."
- Wikipedia

Ehee. I'm a lil lazy right now to type my own synopsis.

First of, MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL.

When I first saw the trailer to this movie during the screening of Madagascar2, I thought to myself that this is a must-watch movie for me since it coincides with the name of my blog. And it's quite cool coz I get to watch the premiere of Bedtime Stories at 12am, Christmas day, as it is only set to release on the 1st of January 2009 here.


Anyway, I should be begin to rant.

Why the movie is hilarious

• Patrick and Bobbi. Really cute kids. And I love how they twist the story thatSkeeter tells.
• Bugsy! He's such a cool guinea pig!
• The Ferrari joke. They actually turned a horse RED!

Why the movie is NOT hilarious

• To be honest, boring storyline.

I think this movie is much more boring than Madagascar 2 although Ammar disagrees. But, I would rather you trust me on this! I have better opinion *hint:ego*. Haha. Sorry pal!

Ouhh, c'mon. Just look at the review I just gave. It shows how 'little' impression I have about the movie. It is not a BAD movie, so I am not going to sue Walt Disney for using the name of my blog and ruining the goodname. Haha. *giler berlagak*

Protes Pertandingan I-Dance

Malam tadi aku sempat terdengar lagi pasal Pemuda PAS bhgn Pulau Pinang yang bengang sebab ader satu kumpulan remaja beragama Islam yang telah dibenarkan untuk bertanding dalam Pertandingan I-Dance (Tarian Jalanan). Sebelum ni, PAS memang dah buat protes, dan yang lebih teruk, protes tu mintak pihak penganjur supaya BATALKAN terus pertandingan tu! Huh, sungguh tidak considerate. Apa ntah beza pertandingan ni dgn rancangan realiti tv sehati berdansa pe jadah tu (maaf, aku xtau title siri itu, aku bukan follower). Nape tak wat protes untuk menghalang rancangan realiti tv tu? Erk. Kalu ader yang protes pasni dan rancangan itu ditamatkan, pasti aku akan dibelasah oleh CikPin yang minat benar rancangan itu! Adehh.

Anyway, berbalik kepada cerita Pemuda PAS PP yang bengang, mereka bengang sbb pihak penganjur benarkan budak2 beragama Islam tu join. Mula2 tu, aku ingat nak berfikiran rasional. Aku pun pikirlah, pasti Pemuda PAS bengang sbb budak2 beragama Islam tu gadis2 belasan tahun yang pakai skimpy clothes pastu menari tarian mengghairahkan ala2 female r&b dancers. Ishk2, memang tak patot sungguh la kalu begitu!

TAPI, aku dapat tau, bdk2 remaja tu hanyalah 3 jejaka yang mengenakan seluar panjang itam, baju kaler putih, dan muke ala2 JOKER! Aikk? Takkan PAS takot ngan Joker kot?? Huhu. Ouhh, nape muke cam Joker? Sbb mereka bertanding sebagai sekumpulan MIMES. LOL. Mimes, LOL, MIMES! What could POSSIBLY go wrong with being mimes?? Adehh, aku ingat takmo speaking, kan dah ter-speaking tu! Haha.

Bising punya bising, kumpulan remaja Islam itu tak berjaya pun ke pusingan akhir. Haha. (Ntah2, sabotaj, supaya PAS bleh hentikan protes drg?? Huhu.)

Hal ni dah menjadi isu politik sbb ia membabitkan DAP dan PAS. Dah lah dua2 pun sayap Pakatan Rakyat. Tapi, kalu btol niat baik Pemuda PAS tu takmau umat dia terjebak dalam kegiatan sosial yang melalaikan, agak2 la wei. Itu hanya satu bentuk tarian yang aku rase menyihatkan je. Miming siot, bukan senang tau x! Kene ader teknik, facial expression yang bagus, badan kene lembik, eh, maksud aku, fleksibel. Heh.

Kalu camni la pemikiran mereka, lepas ni jangan salahkan pihak yang meletakkan syarat ini dalam mana2 dan APA2 pertandingan pun:

1. Terbuka kepada semua warganegara Malaysia kecuali yang beragama Islam.

Korg buat penganjur jadi serba-salah. Kalu ajak join, kata tak sensitif. Tak ajak join, kata mendiskriminasi.

Dah lah. Sengal tol. Baik gi cekup Mat Rempit. Sioootttttt.

* Aku suke org link aku di blog drg tu. THANK YOU. Tapi aku cukup TAK SUKE kalu niat korg hanya utk menjadi SPY. Jangan begitu yer. MOVE ON. Jangan APIKAN DIRI SENDIRI. Kamu jugak yang terbunuh. *ingat nak ckp kasar, tp aku tgh restrain diri.
* Aku suke link kerana suke kan penulisan blogger. Atau kerana penulis kwn aku. Heeee~
* Encik Nabil, Disney yang tiru name belog aku. Hampeh.

RTW8 Report

When we arrived at the so-called Secret Garden, we managed to catch the act of three College Band Search winners: Sharpshooter, Harvesting Space Sounds, and err, I think Dance To The Radio. Sorry if I am wrong. I did not pay much attention to them. Hoho. Harsh.

But I am very impressed with Harvesting Space Sounds because they had some influence of Muse in their sound and their vocalist. Congratulations Harvesting Space Sounds, you now have a fan here. Ahaa. (Not that they DON'T HAVE ANY fans yet!) Anyway, anyone found their Myspace yet? I haven't...

One disappointment is (as usual) the bands which performed did not go according to the schedule. After the opening acts by College Band Search winners, they were suppose to kick off with Estrella. But they started with Upon Arrival, which disappointed ME MOST. Huhu.

As usual, I'd like to make a few notes here about the bands that has performed. Not all will be mentioned. Those not mentioned, either I think they were O-K, or I did not watch them because someone had to get a pair of new slippers after his got ripped off during a serious mosh pit! Nahh, I'm just kidding, we got stuck in a crowd jam at the entrance and someone carelessly stepped on his slippers causing it to rip off. Hua3~

Upon Arrival
They are now OFFICIALLY in my list of BANDS I DON'T LIKE. Enough said.

Zip Zieller
Not bad. Impressed me, although the vocalist was screaming. At least, not as bad as Upon Arrival (sorry guys!).

Estrella
They stole the spotlight (it's only a metaphor, it was still daylight then, hehe), and left us all wanting for more. I wouldn't say it's the best of RTW8, but we all enjoyed it.

Bunkface
I missed about two (or maybe three) songs because of a terrible crowd jam at the entrance. They started right after a break, and since many of us went out of the secret garden, we had to go through a retarded security check before we could get in back. Anyway, Sam was good. Ahaa, I never said he was lousy, have I? Heee... Ok la, I have to be fair, THEY were AWESOME. Some talented youngsters I tell ya..

Koffin Kanser
I know I was pretty harsh in my previous review during their performance at KAMI The Gig. Either they have read my blog (like I am ANY famous) and decided not to scream so much, or the vocalist SIMPLY decided, well, let's bring in Republic of Brickfields and make HAPPY songs for the crowd today! Yeahh, it was WEIRD. He screamed (more like yelling) for ONE song, and then they were just playing instrumental music to the crowd. No more screaming, and that was it. Next band!
* I bet fans who had started FIVE mosh pits then were disappointed too.

Bittersweet/The Times/Estranged/The Otherside Orchestra
All were bringing good music on stage. Bravo guyz!

Revenge
HATE them. Need I say more?

One Buck Short
They have so much experience, so they know their stuff pretty well. By the way, I did not SEE them perform. I was just LISTENING to them from a distance. We were a lil tired then, and thought we'd just listen to them from the car parked outside of the Secret Garden. And even from a distance, we know they are giving a good show.

Butterfingers
I've heard them before and I never really liked them. So, I don't have much say about them but according to Ammar, he's disappointed. Hmm.

By the way, I heard there was a slight hitch when Radhi performed. Something about his unbuttoned shirt? Too bad I missed their performance due to unforeseen circumstances (hint:slippers). Heh.

Ohh, and I love the MC. He was a joke himself. No offense dude, I'm simply making a point to say, you're a natural at cracking stupid, laid back, unintentional jokes!

* did not snap any picture from RTW8 to prove you my existence at the venue. heh.
* i have a dooodolls now! and it has yet been named.

Gift of Life

About three weeks ago, my aunt gave me a few copies of the National Organ Donor Registration Form. I'm not sure if she is an organ donor herself, taken into consideration her current health.

I have always wanted to pledge for my organs and tissues to be used for transplantation after death. It is the only humanitarian act of charity that I could possible do when I die to hopefully, save lives. The Gift of Life.

While exploring the 1-page form, I came about the key question to what I wish to pledge.

4. YOUR WISH
I wish that after my death:-

a) [ ] All my organs and tissues

b) OR (you can tick more than one)

• [ ] Kidneys
  
• [ ] Heart
  
• [ ] Liver
• [ ] Lungs
• [ ] Eyes
• [ ] Bones
• [ ] Skin

be removed for the purpose of transplantation.

Ahaa. I DEFINETELY would not go for option A! It kinda freak me out to actually allow my eyes, bones and skin for transplantation!

My internal organs would do. *smiles*

* I wonder if someone receives my heart, will that person carry on my emo legacy... Ahaa.
* Anyone who wants the form, you're more than welcome to get one from me.
* I want to stay positive. *smirk*

Setan

Malam tadi ada penjaga yang menjaga hatiku.
Namun keceriaan malam tidak datang percuma.
Kerana malam ini hatiku keruan.
Menjadi tidak tentu arah kerana si setan.

Sudah lama aku tak merasa ceria begitu.
Kenapa aku tak rasa pelik malam tadi.
Malah keceriaan terbawa-bawa hingga ke pagi.
Kenapa aku tak perasan ini pasti mendatang.

Malam ini aku penuh rasa bingung.
Bukan. Bukan bingung.
Tapi marah.
Kenapa setan?
Kenapa ganggu keceriaan aku?
Kenapa kau tak boleh jadi sesuatu yang bertanggungjawab?
Walhal kau lah kepala.

Tak nampak ke perit aku di sini?
Kau anggap aku ini hanya tahu bergembira?
Kau tu buta!
Kau tak nampak apa yang aku dah lakukan untuk mereka.
Aku mahu menjadi baik.
Kerana kau setan yang hanya tahu menjadi setan.

Aku mahu terus menjadi manusia yang baik.
Aku mahu terus membantu mereka.
Tapi kau menghalang aku.
Kau membantutkan cita-cita aku.
Nyah kau setan!
Nyah kau dari hidup aku. Dan mereka yang ku sayang.
Kami tak perlukan kau.
Kau perlu bersemadi.

* Penulis dirasuk mood EMO GILER. Maaf jika terlalu kasar untuk bacaan anda.
* Entri ini ADA kena-mengena dengan yang hidup dan TIDAK mati lagi. Dem.

Update: Rock The World 8

Results from Rock The World College Band Search:

1. Static Emily
2. Harvesting Space Sounds
3. Sharpshooter
4. Incarnation
5. Dance To The Radio
6. Out To Bed

They will be the opening acts for Rock The World 8. Don't miss out on them (although I think I would, hehe).

Oh yeahh, heard that Laila's Lounge WON'T BE COMING. They are being replaced by Bittersweet. Dem. I was hoping LL would perform Stargazer - the influence of Muse in their sound. Sigh.

Once a Corn Dog, Always a Corn Dog

"Out of 10 stories he tells you, DO NOT believe 11 of it" - Anonymous dude.


Ouhh, I wasn't gonna talk about corn dog. I am just hungry right now. Huhu.

The corn dog I am gonna blab about is the corn without the 'R' and no dogs harmed. Ahaa. Conman.

I have a friend who had previously con me with his story. His fooling strategy was well-arranged, it almost looked like he was innocent. Yet, I let that episode slip away as I believe in a reason for everything.

Yesterday, I realized that I am almost his con victim again, this time involving money. He played and hid it quite well for almost a month now. Last night, his strategy begin to fall apart. And he begin to stutter on the phone.

To the conman,
Deny as much as you want. Deny ALL OF IT if you need to. But we all know the truth. One con story can be our misinterpretation of your 'good-heartedness'. Two con story; is NO COINCIDENCE.

You've put on a good show, I am amused.
Applause.
It's time to let the red curtain fall.
I, shall take the bow.


* I still regard you as a friend, because I believe in "second chances".
* Oh wait, this is your THIRD. Dem.

Los dan Faun

Setelah dipujuk dan dirayu oleh CikPin, aku telah menemani beliau untuk menonton filem baru arahan Afdlin Shauki yang berjudul Los dan Faun. Kali pertama aku dengar name citer ni dan setelah diberitahu sinopsis citer, aku teringat plak kesamaan citer ni dengan anime Getbackers. Heh, sape2 yang layan Getbackers, tak perlu la layan citer ni, kerana ia akan menghampakan anda. Encik CarLOS Rodrigo dan Ahmad FAUN takde superpower cam Amano Ginji and Mido Ban. Muahahaha!!! (gelak kejam yer rakan2)


Kisah bermula di sebuah kedai coli. Aper diorang buat kat situ? Ahaa, di situ lah bermulanyer kisah Faun tunjuk terer cari barang hilang. Wakakaka!! Yang si Los plak, as usual, LOST. Heh.

Walaupun Los itu LOST ketika itu, namun beliau lah yang mendapat ilham untuk memulakan perniagaan mencari barang yang hilang. Macam2 yang dicari balik. Coli, duit loteri apek Cina, wang haram sindiket dadah, ahli2 kumpulan 4U2C, Kickdefella yang menyorok dari ISA, bendera yang terbalik. Eh, taklah, aku tipu je sumer tu! Ahaa~

Oleh kerana kehebatan mereka telah digembar-gemburkan di iklan akhbar dan TV, maka Datin Jasmin mula la merisik Faun. Eh, maksud aku, merisik kebolehan Los dan Faun mencari jam tangan hasben terchenta dia yang hilang ketika kene strok. Terkejut mereka apabila diberitahu oleh Datin Jasmin yang jus papaya kegemaran mereka tak dapat diproses. Haha. Taklah, diorang terkejut bila diberitahu harga jam tangan tu RM 30 juta. (apsal aku asyik nak wat lawak nih??)

Apa yang seronok:

1. Ketika bapak Faun ter-tengok citer Brokeback Mountain, pastu asyik bayangkan anaknya itu gay kerana asyik citer problem dia dengan Los jek.
2. "I miss you, but not in a gay way, owkay!" Wahaha~
3. Selena Mysterina!! Beliau pandai buat magik cabut mata ohh!! Hehe.
4. Time Jefri nak bunuh diri. Macam starfish lah kamu! Haha.

Apa yang tak best:

1. Jalan citer bosan, flat. Kalu tak kerana lawak dan fikirkan duit RM11 yang aku bayar kat si gadis kaunter GSC, memang aku dah blah dah. Haha.
2. Rambut Los. Aku takleh concentrate tgk muvi ni sbb aku asyik perhati rambut Los! Geram sehh, rasa cam nak gune pencukur rambut jek atas kepala dia!
3. Faun yang bajet terer. Adlin tak pandai bawak watak bijak pandai. Memang nampak seperti lakonan semata-mata.
4. Adlin tak reti bagi penerangan. Lepas dia terangkan sesuatu, aku makin konfiuz. Kesimpulannya, aku konfiuz tentang konspirasi antara Sofar Sogood, Dick, Datin Jasmin dan Amran. (CikPin baru je bwat penerangan ending Los dan Faun kat YM)

Saranan untuk Encik Afdlin Shauki:

1. Sila tulis skrip yang tak berbelit-belit dan sesuai difahami oleh semua lapisan masyarakat seperti Melayu, Cina, India, Kadazan, Bajau, Murut, Iban, Bidayuh, Serani dll. Mandi hadas besar? Huh, aku terpakse tanya CikPin apejadah mende tu!
2. Jika terfikir untuk amik Adlin untuk berlakon, aku rekomen ko amik CikPin jek la. Sekurang-kurangnya, aku paham la jugak penerangan CikPin. Kwang3~

Rating? Tak perlu la. Aku masih sayangkan industri perfileman negara, jadi tak perlu la saya berlaku jujur disini. Erk. Hipokrit!

Konflik

Baru selesai konflik Pentagon.
Penat aku menahan sakit.
Hari ini konflik hati yang mati.

Tolong lah.
Hati ini dah mati pun.
Kau takkan mampu hidupkan semula.

Konflik Pentagon. Konflik Hati mati.
Ada seorang yang tersepit rupanya.
Bukan aku. Tapi kamu.

Kamu sedarkah?

Four Months

Everytime I decide to write a decent entry, it will always be followed by an emo post. I don't know why. It's as though my life cannot run from being emotionally distracted. Only yesterday I felt really good in 2 weeks after so much conflict, today I am haunted by my past.

The EX BOYFRIEND is back...

Yes. And this time, I DID NOT INTEND to awaken my past relationship.

So why did he come back after 4 months of silence? He said, he had waited for too long for my apology. Excuse me, but if you HAD BEEN reading my blog, you should know by now the reason why I do not want to be apologetic.

You know, you're so lucky that I replied your text message this morning. And you're also lucky that I picked up your phone call this morning.

You NEVER replied my message before. You NEVER picked up my phone calls before. You've made your point well - you wanted OUT. You wanted to forget me. You were throwing me away from your life. And I understood your signals. And I raised my flags. (It wasn't white by the way. That's just too feminine!)

But today, you said I read your signals wrongly. You were ALL ALONG waiting for the word "I'm sorry" and everything will be back to normal. Well, I am sorry now that I have misread your signals. And I am sorry that I am moving on.

I wished you birthday. I wished you festive. You didn't wish my birthday. You didn't wish my festive. What should I think of you then?

I feel bad that I have not waited for you to this day. I am sure you are hurt. MUCH MORE hurt right now. But you have sent me all the wrong signals. Signals that you HATE me. And it struck me two months ago, to move on because there weren't any point hanging by a moment of silence. I never heard from you...

FOUR MONTHS, is bloody too long. Anymore love left? I beg to differ. (I hope)


* I'd like to remain friends with all my exes. It's called guilty conscious. Ahaa.
* It is exactly four months today.
* I wonder why there's no one at the badminton court today. I miss my wake up calls to the sound of the shuttlecock!
* Nevermind the wake up call, I did not sleep well anyway.
* I'm adding a new label called 'Emo'. Heh.

A Reason for Everything, the Effect of Decision Making

Remember how you felt when you just broke up and you have no idea why the other half decided to call it quits? Remember how everyone else disagrees yet you decided to date Mr Casanova?

Why did your other half make that heart-breaking decision? Why did you agree to the date?

There must be a reason behind every action, whether good or bad is another question/issue.

Once in a while, we all make bad decisions. I have made several bad decisions, taken wrong paths and turning at points of no return. All with a cause. And all with a reason.

Yet, making the right decision doesn't guarantee you a positive closure either. There is no warranty for taking the right path. No way to tell if the right decision IS RIGHT.

Sometimes, we are offered a "second chance" - to make an alteration to our decision for a better closure. Most of the time, we live with the decision we make.

How do we handle a bad decision then? Fall into depression? But for how long? I know I am an emo person, but I also know when it is time to get up and move on.

So, just how do we get up and move on?

Just remember, there is A REASON FOR EVERYTHING. And I ALWAYS believe, it is for a GOOD reason.


* I am putting no sense, am I? I've thought so. Sigh~

Nangis

Dah lama tak nampak Jen nangis.

Tengok di cermin, hodoh.
Ouhh, tapi bukan sebab nangis.
Tapi sebab rambut curl yang tak jadi!

Aku lemah juga rupanya.

Nenek, aku rindu kan kamu.
Kenapa kekuatan itu pergi bersama kamu.

Jen, sudah lah.
Tiada siapa lapkan air mata tu.
Kita menari dalam hujan ya?


Malam ni nak makan aper?
Makan hati.

Aah, lupakan sebentar.
Jom layan lagu Kappa Mikey!

Terima kasih ya kamu.


* lagi-lagi post emo. aku sendiri bosan. tapi, apakan daya.. ergh~

Tiba Waktu

Mungkin sudah tiba waktu
Untuk mengundur diri.

Maafkan aku, kamu.
Aku keliru rupanya.

Maaf juga kerana
Cakap tak serupa bikin.


* Dah kata, clean entri takkan tahan lama.

Event of the Month: Rock the World 8

20th December 2008 (Saturday)
The Secret Garden, Stadium Merdeka


Expected Bands to Perform:
[Estranged] [One Buck Short] [The Times] [Purevibracion] [Bunkface]
[Republic of Brickfields] [Butterfingers] [Koffin Kanser]
[The Otherside Orchestra] [Laila's Lounge] [Revenge]
[They Will Kill Us All] [Komplot] [OAG] [Upon Arrival]

Ticket is at RM25. Available at all Rock Corner, Music Valley, Tower Records, Extreme outlet. Also can be bought on the day of event at venue.

~The one in red are the bands I am most looking forward to!

~Not to sure if Zip Zieller is gonna be there because I heard rumors saying they won't be performing.

~Did I mention I HATE Koffin Kanser?

~And Revenge, erm, TAK BERKENAN LA NGAN ROCK KAPAK!!

~Anyone care to join me?


* It's been awhile since I last write a clean entry like this.
* I have a feeling this clean entry won't last till tonight. Ahaa~

Kembali ke KL

Setelah 5 hari di Langkawi, sehari di KL dan 2 hari di Kuantan, aku kembali semula ke KL.

Dan aku buntu.

Mengapa kita manusia perlu ada propaganda? Mengapa kita tidak boleh hidup baik-baik tanpa sebarang agenda yang hanya akan memakan diri kelak?

Sedar tak sedar, dia hanya memerangkap dirinya.

Hentikanlah permainan ini. Aku tak seronok bermain. Aku rasa tersepit.

Dan kamu, jangan menghilang ya? Kamu tahu kan, aku tak sanggup kehilangan walaupun ia lebih mudah berbanding menghilang...


** Aku perlukan kawan. Kawan yang tidak mengambil kesempatan di atas kelemahan aku sekarang...

Goodbye Dr Stankov

Within a short period of only 4 days, I have developed a strong emotional bond with a 67 year old man who happens to have the same hairstyle as Mr Colonel; who also writes mind-disturbing journals on militant extremism.

He thinks it's because of his white hair. I think it's his personality. And as much as I HATE to say this, my heart felt heavy when you said your goodbye, Dr Stankov.

OR perhaps, I saw my grandma smiling through you.. Perhaps..

* I know how much my friends in the real world and cyberspace miss me. Ahaa. I'll be back to KL tomorrow, okay?
* Tonight, I'll get LOTS of chocolates!!... And Jack Daniels for my dad...ergh~

Langkawi Day 1 & 2

Day 1.

The worst flight journey. There were TOO MANY kids in the plane and it was damn noisy. I love kids, but I was very distracted by the noise yesterday.

Day 2.

I hate my morning. I want to go home.
I'm pissed off. And devastated.
Please, take me home?

* How ironic the post I had earlier. Sigh..

Positive Thinking

“A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.” - Winston Churchill.

It is the end of November.
The month where I share my birthday with many of my friends.
It is the month I vow to start fresh with my life.
The month I told myself that I should leave a completed chapter, and move on to a new chapter.

And to open a new chapter, I shall start by being POSITIVE.
Believe that there is a good reason/cause for everything that went wrong.
And for all the bummers we had a day or two days before our next birthday, it is simply to complete and summarize a year from your life.
It also reminds us that there will be much to come ahead.

You are living TODAY. Not tomorrow.
And a good preparation for tomorrow is to be POSITIVE.
If this has been a difficult year, turn it around.

Some consider the subject of positive thinking as plain nonsense.
Others feel it is the denial process of hypocrites.
But it is never wrong to think for the best.
It is also never wrong to be confident with life.

* My decent entry ends here. The next few line may cause some stir.

To a good friend,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
And, MOVE ON.
Even if she deserves you, you DON'T deserve her.
It's plain BULLSHIT for her to hurt you today.
It annoys us to see you this way.
Even if she regretted her actions.
BUT, we also know that it takes time.
Just leave this chapter at some point, okay?
This announcement is brought to you by: KECIK AND JEN.

To ST, NH and who-ever-else, forget about lady doctors! I'm here. Ahaa. *mereng*

Strange is Writing

I've been trying to write an entry, but there's just too many things going in parallel right now. Anger, stress, joy and laughter, all in a bundle, thrown onto a petite body and soul like mine.

So, for the time being, let me distract you to this page here. I write them during my spare time. Some writing are as old as 4 years, some are still fresh. And it sometimes reflect how I feel, what I am going through, or what I see in others.

I've only posted a few up to today. It takes some time to search for my older writings. Some were destroyed by virus attacks on my lappy so I have to search through my cds to see if I keep a copy of my writings somewhere.

Someone told the world that he liked what I have written. But soon that world had to be erased. Ahaa. I am sorry if some do not understand what I mean here (Yeahh, I feel sober now). I am full of personal stories. After all, this is a personal blog. I hope you don't hate that blog. It may not be great, but it's my personal writing too.

I'll be writing an entry for this blog when my mind is clearer. It's time to balance off my writings with a decent entry soon.

* I hope to have a good weekend.
** Some people are just plain lucky. But I believe this is karma.

Speeding

Giler babi.

Hehe. Sori la, aku menatang campuran, so aku gune perkataan giler babi. Kepada pembaca-pembaca baru alam siber, maafkan daku. Kepada pembaca-pembaca lama yang juga rakan-rakan di ALAM NYATA, aku rase korg tak kisah kan? Ahaa.

Mlm tadi memang giler. Akibat kemerengan rakanku, kami terjah Cameron Highlands. Ya, di tgh mlm yang agak2 dingin. Hampir tak sempat pulang ke rumah pagi ini. Dalam keta, aku suda siap merangka alasan tak dapat pegi keje. Terbayang-bayang muke suwit Dr Mahtun. Ahaha. Mane tak nyer, mencari stesen petrol pada jam 4 pg di Cameron Highlands satu cabaran takley blah. Naseb baek jumpe. Kalu tak, ouhh, taktau la, tak sempat aku nak pikirkan ketika panik itu melanda. Eh, aku panik ke? Tak lah. Aku cool jek kan. Encik Robin Hood je yang panik tak pasal2. Tu la wei, aku dah kate, PD. Ko nak gak sokong budak kepala mereng tu! Psst, suke la tgk kamu cuak. Heeeeee....

Time balik takley blah. Berbekalkan rasa bersalah yang bertimpa-timpa atas bahu rakan2ku, keheningan mlm retak seribu. Speeding bagai mau giler. Aku mual sbb tu sbnrnyer, tapi sbb aku budak TOUGH aku ckp TAKPE, BAWAK LA LAJU MANE KO NAK. Cisdel btol Encik Robin Hood. Ko tak paham bahasa kias2 ke?? Tapi xpe, wlpn ko speeding, aku tetap rase selamat. Err...selamat ke speeding 160/180?? Ntah. Haha. Naseb baek time kat highway, aku ade tertido wlpn tak lena.

Wlpn ini keje giler di tgh mlm, aku TAK MENYESAL. Serius. Kenapa? Sbb aku pegi dgn org2 yg boleh buat aku rasa selesa. And no, aku bukan mudah percaye org. Cuma, you've earned my trust.

Ouhh giler ngantok skang ni.

p/s: rakan2 aku yang defensive, thanks. blog dan alam nyata lain, jadi biarkan aje k. kita tak perlu buktikan aper2.

Sakit...

Sakit perut ni tiap ari. Kadang-kadang aku lapa, tp aku tak leh makan. Makan lebih sket, tros meragam perut aku nih.

Tgk site traffic aku pagi ni, aku jadi makin sakit. Bukan makin sakit perut, juga bukan sakit ati. Tapi sakit tol lah nak tahan gelak ni wei!! Trafik dari negara jiran tu hanya mampu buat aku geleng kepala. Ye laa, kan aku tgh sakit nk gelak. Haha. Ape da. Stail budak skolah bergadoh tol. Aper2 pun, aku nak ucapkan time kaseh lah kepada trafik yg dtg dari negara jiran tu. Sbb ko lah, makin ramai masuk blog ni sejak smlm. Pergh. Dah la ST anta trafik ke aku gak smlm. Gile femes aku skang. Muahaha~ (stail tunjuk lagak. suke ati aku ok? aku masih tak peduli aura aper yg korg rase masuk blog nih.)

Adehh, tak leh gelak byk, cakit..adehh.

* bg yg terlepas pandang, post ini juga bertujuan utk bgtau korg yg aku dh gune Plurk. yg tak phm gak, abaikan. credits to ST. (aku dh register pas ko suh aritu, bagus kan?). tp aku masih tak phm aper yg best nyer gune Plurk. haha.

ONE reason why I WON'T GIVE UP my seat

Because they refuse to accept it.

It had happened soooooo many times that I am finally deciding not to ever be polite again. So, if you see a young lady going up bus no T633 who carries a black bag with earphones stuck in her ears, please DO NOT EXPECT her to give up her seat for ANY elderly in the bus (except this one old lady who always accepts my seat with her weak smile. *smirk*). Call me rude, call me disrespectful. Sometimes when I want to be the polite person that I AM, I just can't help feel annoyed when the elderly refuses the seat I offer to them in the bus. What's even worst is, sometimes the elderly rejects the seat quite rudely. Who's rude again?? Yeah, the ELDERLY. I guess, old folks have ego too, huh?

So, to everyone who STILL insist that youngsters should give up their seats for the elderly, think again. Maybe these youngsters are tired of rejection too. I, for one, always doubt if I should give up my seat because I dislike staring pairs of eyes when the elderly rejects. I know it's not public humiliation, but it is a humiliation to my humbleness.

And therefore, I do not wish to be bothered anymore. I'll take the bus tomorrow (IF I'm not late, else, "TAXI!!"). And when I go up the bus, I'll take my seat, look down, and continue reading
Leaders Talk Leadership. Psst, I did not see that old lady standing beside my seat.

Kenali Aku

Lumrah manusia bila bertentang mata dengan seseorang yang baru dikenali adalah untuk membuat tanggapan pandang pertama. Di blog pula, kita sering menilai penulisnya dari segi penulisan. Kadang2, ada yg percaya kpd penilaian masing2. Same la jgk mcm bace MalaysiaToday ke, MalaysiaKini ke, masing2 lg suke kalu percaye wlpn penulisan MUNGKIN bkn situasi sebenar. Pelik la korg ni. Ish3.

Ye laa, aku leh dgr korg komplen dah tu, so biarlah aku mengaku (wlpn aku tak bersalah). Aku jugak spt korg. Suke buat tanggapan sendiri bila baca blog org. Kalu aku rs penulisan blog kasar, aku mesti buat tanggapan penulis seorang yang bengis, brutal dan takde perikemanusiaan. Kalu blog klakar, aku slalu rs penulis tu ader masalah mental, kurang didikan Sejarah dan Geografi, serta berfikiran cetek mcm air sinki yang lekat kat saluran. Heh. Suke ati aku la nak pk aper.

Baru-baru ni bila aku kenal dengan Encik Robin Hood, dia asyik cakap aku ni pelik. Katanya, penampilan aku buat aku tak nampak seperti usia aku yang sebenar (nampak lebih tua atau muda, terpulang kepada imaginasi anda). Dan dia fikir pompuan jarang layan lagu local indie, jadi mengapa aku melayan plak lagu-lagu camtu. Encik Robin Hood makin pelik bila aku cakap tentang latar belakang famili aku. Dan juga tak paham kenapa aku gune kasut converse bertali ungu tu. Ergh.

Aku nak clear kan perkara-perkara yang telah merunsingkan kepala Encik Robin Hood.

1. Umur aku 24 tahun dan aku sangat selesa pakai jeans/sluar pendek ngan tshirt plus kasut converse/slipar pantai.
2. Aku suke indie dari luar negara gak mcm band2 dari UK, US, Filipina (remember Rivermaya?) dan Indonesia. Jadi SILA JGN HERAN kalu aku suke local indie.
3. Aku kacukan India dan Bidayuh. Agama aku Hindu. Kalu aku fasih Bahasa Melayu, ini sebab aku bawak identiti BANGSA MALAYSIA. Ada paham?
4. Kasut converse aku bertali ungu sebab ia kasut Limited Edition. Aku tak beli tali kasut sukasukihatiaku semata-mata nak bajet cam best.

Aku jugak nak clearkan kepala2 org lain yang suke pk bukan2. Kepala sape? Bak kate Nabil, LU PIKIR LA SENDIRI! Haha.

1. Aku slalu cakap aku emo sbb aku masih lagi dibayangi tragedi putus cinta yang dah masuk 3 bulan ni. Aku manusia biasa yang punya perasaan. Tak salah kalu aku nak emo. Aku rasa aku emo sorg2 jek. Aku tak penah plak lempar ke-emo-an aku kat org lain. (Eh, xde kan? Hehe.)
2. Skang aku SINGLE. Tapi aku TAK MENCARI SAPE-SAPE. So, bagi yang ader hati kat aku, SILA CARI POMPUAN LAIN. Aku takde hati la kat korg, especially yang baru balik dari Hanoi. Jadi jgn perkotak-katikkan kehidupan aku sbg org single. Amat bahagia. Kawan-kawan aku lagi penting dari lelaki bwat mase ni. Kalu nak gak, anta resume dulu dan lampirkan slip gaji beserta bank statement anda. Jika tiada respon dari aku 3 hari selepas submission, anggap jek dah kene rejek. Ahaha.
3. Merujuk kepada perkara no 2, ingin diTEKANkan di sini, AKU BUKAN LESBIAN!!!! Wehh, penat la bgtau korg!!

Lol. Aku sebenarnyer takde idea nak blog pasal aper arini. Jadi aku terpikir untuk buat korg sumer cuak jap. Eh, cuak tak? Kalu tak cuak, xpe la. Kalu yang cuak, err, padan muke! Haha.

Aper2 pun, kuar ngan Mon siang td mmg best. Dah lame tak bergosip cam budak2 skolah. Ahaa.

Why Strange?

Why Atreyu? Huhu. I've been asked about the name several time. Yet, a few did agree that I am strange in a way.

Strange is a surname I chose to use inspired by Emily the Strange, a fictional character. Back in the days when I was in the university, I use to collect a lot of her stuffs. From bags, to badges and erm, badges, and MORE badges. Haha.


Emily Strange's character caught my attention because she is dark, mysterious and yet, strong and feminine. And she is beautiful. Ahaa. Something I wish I am. Nahh, I'm too hard on myself, so I'd like to change my statement - "And she is AS beautiful AS I AM". Hua3~

This reminds me, I used to love watching Daria. Too bad it's no longer running. I find Daria amusing because she is a smart and cynical girl who often has different views from the rest of the world, including her family. Ooh, and I especially love how she speaks so slowly, damn retard. Yet, she is SMART with the choice of words. Ahaa. I think you could still find her on youtube like this one here. Love the theme song too. Damn retard ar wei! Haha.

I think I have an issue with GIRL POWER. Really. Because besides Emily Strange and Daria, I also love Kim Possible, Samantha, Alex and Clover (the last three from Totally Spies, ehehe). Well, I prefer Alex of course. Coz she is NOT perfect in every way. She has flaws and we do too. Huhu. Ohh, and Kim Possible, she carries herself well as a FRIEND.

And I think you already know my obssession over Ashley Tisdale. Really, this is about girl power. Nothing to do with my sexuality. Lol.

So, where did Atreyu come from? Ahaa. I'll let you wonder for some time before I spill the soyabean. Heh.

Hair Fix

For more than a month now, I've been wondering what to do with my hair. Snip it off, curl it, shag it, straighten it, you name it - I've thought of it all. I've got to do SOMETHING with my growing hair. Yet, I don't seem to know what I want! Darn it.

I don't like Amy Winehouse's songs, neither do I like the attitude. So, it kinda scares me to think that the time will come when I have a bee hive up on my head like hers! Yikes~


I finally narrowed-down my hairstyle ideas to three:

1. Cut my hair shoulder length like Nicole Richie. But it might also require some treatment ehh. To leave it soft and shiny! Haha!
2. Have curls like Emma Roberts from the ear downwards. I've done it before and loved it. It doesn't make me look boring... Haha. Yeahh, I am boring people rite now!
3. I want Ashlee Tisdale's hair!!! How to achieve that?? Grrrr.... I don't know!! Haha. Perhaps, I'll just end up doing treatment. Just to get back my natural wave with less split ends and NO Amy Winehouse bee hive.

I was also thinking of straightening my hair, BUT with ONE CONDITION - I will not wear my lenses anymore. I will give that hairdo a geeky look - yeahh, back to black-framed glasses. Smart eh? Huhu. But Cik Pin said maintenance of such hair is beyond our salary can pay. Haha. I'll take that as a NO from her.

Whatever I'm gonna do with my hair, I will NOT end up looking pretty and dolled-up for Grammy's like the rest above (EXCEPT Amy Winehouse). See, I AM a realistic person - yes, I am talking to you ST.

p.s. Cik Pin suggested some some hairstyles, but they were just WAAAYYY-TOOOOO-CUTE for me! Haha.

another p.s. I'm not a lesbo - in case you think I've been putting up pictures of Ashlee Tisdale a lil too many times. Oh wait, you didn't think so?? Ahhh. I am intoxicated. Haha.

Sally Who?

Being the emotional person that I am, I cannot help myself but dig this song.

Sally's Song Lyrics

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

Classic tune from Nightmare Before Christmas Album: Nightmare Revisited. There's three version of this song. Sally's, Amy Lee's and Fiona Apple's. The best? Of course Sally's. But between Amy Lee and Fiona Apple, well, being a fan of rock, emo, and goth, who do you think I would prefer? Huhu. This is a personal choice, but Fiona Apple is unique in her own way too. I'm sure her fans would agree.

Amy Lee - Sally's Song MP3

**Gosh, I could relate to her feelings. Oh wait, I'm OVER IT now.

Lelaki, Jangan Permainkan Perasaan Kami, Boleh?

Kadang-kadang aku rasa lelaki bertindak tanpa fikirkan akibat atau impaknya. Aku tau la ader pompuan macam tu jugak, tapi sebab aku pompuan, mesti la aku cakap laki begitu! Haha. Macam kes kawan aku ni, dia rapat giler dengan sorang budak laki ni. Lelaki ni pernah berkata, "Tiada apa-apa antara kita". Kawan aku pun, layan kan je lah. Tapi kan, mengapa lelaki ini boleh pula marah dan merajuk dengan kawan aku bila kawan aku datang lambat untuk berjumpa? Bukankah kamu sendiri yang kata "Tiada apa"? Kalu kawan aku tu datang lambat, aku takde pulak nak marah-marah. Dah memang tiada apa kan, buat apa nak marah.

Aku pernah diberitahu oleh kawan laki aku satu perkara yang buat aku sedikit terkejut (tapi tak terkejut dah skang). Dia cakap, ada lelaki yang punya dua teman istimewa serentak sebab satu hanya sesuai jadi gurlpren, dan satu lagi untuk dijadikan isteri. Asalnya, aku kurang percaya dengan apa yang aku dengar, tapi bila aku tengok kawan-kawan aku lalui semua tu, aku dah mula percaya dengan statement dia tu.

Aku jugak perasan yang lelaki suke gunakan alasan UNIVERSAL supaya tidak kelihatan bersalah. Stail takmau mengaku salah. Cisdel betol. Aritu, kawan aku story (aku lagi suke gune perkataan 'mengadu' sebenarnyer, tp takpe lah) kat aku, "Dia tak wish time birthday aku". Aku tanya balik, "Dia lupa ke?". Kawan aku jawab, "Dia taktau bile birthday aku". Aku tau memang ader lelaki yang tak ambil tahu tentang harijadi orang lain, teman istimewa mahupun isteri. Tapi, tak perlu la asyik menggunakan alasan lelaki-tak-kesah-semua-tu apabila sendiri yang TIADA INISIATIF mau tau. Alasan camtu dah basi la wei! BASI!!!

Buat kawan aku tu, kamu fikirkanlah apa yang aku katakan ini ya? Aku tau aku pernah menyatakan rasa tak puas hati tentang lelaki itu, tapi itu tak bererti aku tak pernah cuba memahami perasaan kamu itu. Tapi aku juga tak suke kamu dipermainkan begitu.

Buat lelaki tu, sebenarnya, kamu suka kat dia atau tidak? Sila jangan permainkan perasaan kawan aku tu, boleh tak? Aku tak suke...

Aku tak suke salahkan lelaki dalam hal ni. Tapi, aku nak salahkan jugak (sebabnya sudah dimaklumkan di atas). Skang ni pun, kalu aku kawan dengan lelaki, aku pastikan ada had dalam persahabatan kami. Ye laa, kalu persahabatan tu disalah erti, cuak la jugak kan. Aku takmau di salah erti. Cukuplah sekadar di salah erti oleh famili aku, ex aku, makcik aku.. Kang tak pasal2, ader la org tulis post "Hey Pompuan, Jangan Permainkan Perasaan Kami!". Wakakaka!!!

Ape2 pun, layan jap petikan Ayat-ayat Cinta di bawah..

Listen Moto-to
You better treat this lady like a queen
Because you my friend
You found yourself the perfect woman
If I was ever so lucky to find the perfect woman
I would give her flowers everyday
And not just any flowers okay
Her favourites are orchids
White
And breakfast in bed
Six loafs of wheat toast with butter on both sides
No crust the way she likes it
I'd be her shoulder to cry on
And her best friend
And I'd spend everyday trying to think of how to make her laugh
She has the most
Most amazing laugh
I mean...
That's what I would do if I were you
But I'm not.
So you do it.

(Oh, ini bukan petikan dari AAC the movie yer, ini petikan dari ayat-ayat cinta Melman. Hehe.)

P/S: Mesti korg pening baca post2 aku. Skejap Melayu, skejap Inggeris. Lantak aku lah, ok tak? Takmau bace pun takpe. Hehe.

Madagascar 2 Soundtrack

Since I am a fan of MUSIC, I always pay attention to the songs being played in the movies I watch. And if there's any that caught my attention, I am sure to download it. And these are my several BEST tracks that I picked up from the Madagascar 2 OST.

1. The Traveling Song
- Played during the scene when a bunch of fishermen saved Alex from the ocean, in a wooden box, with fish stuck in his mouth. Adorable.

2. I Like to Move It
- Need I say more? Huhu.

3. Once Upon A Time in Africa
- Hans Zimmer, you're the genius!

4. Big and Chunky
- Raise your hands up if you love Moto Moto!! This is definitely for you, Moto Moto fans!

5. Alex on the Spot
- Played during the dance scene between daddy and son. No difference from "The Traveling Song", except it's more upbeat and shorter, suited for the scene.

Enjoy. ;)

Foot Reflexology (SIOTNeS)

That's for "Someone's Idea of Trying New Stuff". Haha.

Yesterday, a friend of mine asked me to join him for a foot reflexology. And his friend second the notion. Despite being phobic of the thought of someone rubbing my feet, I agreed to join the session. I knew how much you wanted it. Haha.


I don't know about the place we're going to, but apparently, the practitioners do not speak Malay nor English because I'm assuming they're from the mainland of China. Ohh, the only one speaking Malay/English is the lady at the counter coz she's a Malaysian Chinese. Adehh.

One friend even chose which guy practitioner he wanted (like going to a brothel and making a gay-ish pick?? gosh, NO! don't tell him I said this). The other, haha, he was basically IN DEEP SHIT throughout the session.

I was massaged by a lady practitioner. I don't know how a foot massage is suppose to feel, but I felt like she didn't do it all too well. As far as I am concerned, when done by a skilled practitioner, reflexology is deeply relaxing. If they're less skilled, you'll just feel like you've had a very long foot massage. So, I don't know, because I felt a lil too relax. Is this how it's suppose to feel? I thought there was suppose to be some pressure?

And furthermore, she was rubbing my right foot more than my left foot. Is this how it's suppose to be too? Or she sort of sensed that my right foot needed more massage? Well, I don't know, maybe this is a common practice where the practitioner could detect the area with most pressure?

I had so many questions, yet I can't ask her. In fact, my friend showed some sign language to ask her to put more pressure on my feet, and she was replying to us in Mandarin, as though we understood her. And we were just nodding and talking to each other like, "whatever she just said" and "does she know that we're smiling coz she look so dumb doing that". And the fact that she was pointing at my feet while speaking in Mandarin scares me too. I was imagining some reply from her. Could it be that she was trying to say, "Your feet stink like rotten rat!", "You have huge feet dear!", "You never took care of your feet, have you?", "Your skin is so coarse!" or "Your feet is as hard as a man's feet". Yikes!! Those thoughts... ergh!!~

I am convinced by these two friends that my feet would feel lighter. Yet, my feet doesn't feel lighter. Neither is feeling better. Because I could feel some pressure on my right ankle right now. And there's a slight bruising on top of that ankle. Hmm..

I am NOT trying to point out that foot reflexology do you NO GOOD. But I am merely sharing my FIRST TIME experience with reflexology. The ankle does feel smoother. Hehe. But, that's not the point of a massage. Perhaps, I am a new to this kinda stuff, therefore I can't tell the difference. But it sure doesn't feel right for a first experience. Hehe. No offence k. I enjoyed the company, that's what more important. Ahaa. *wink wink*

Madagascar 2: Escape to Africa

Just by watching the trailer, I'm pretty sure many would want to watch this movie. The trailer found on youtube was already cracking me up, let alone watching the whole movie. Well, unless, you don't like animated movie, plus you're too emo (WAAAAYYYY MORE EMO than I am) to go to the movies.

Slotted at 1.50pm, the cinema was totally packed with kids, teenagers, adults, and parents. The seats were all taken up, right down to the seats nearest to the screen! Gosh, I wonder how their neck would feel. Worthy? Hehe.


The movie gave a good start with the selling song EVERYONE knows from the previous Madagascar. Duhh, I don't have to remind you which song I'm refering to, do I?

So the movie is about Africa. How did they end up there? Let's just let EVERYONE ELSE who writes a review spoil that for you. In Africa, Alex met his long lost parents. Alex (or Alakay, so it was his real name) found out that his daddy, is Alpha Lion, whereas daddy, was proud to find out that his son is King of New York. So to speak.

As Marty joins all the other zebras, he soon feels that he wasn't unique after all because they are alike. Gloria, who had made the decision to join the breeding program (IF they have landed in NY instead) finally found her love (or so she had thought), Moto Moto. Melman became the witch doctor and was later convinced by the other giraffes that he has a terminal disease that they believe is the curse of witch doctors.

Skipper, Kowalski, Rico and Private (the Penguins if you didn't know that), they are of course, always trying to fix situations, and by fixing means, stealing parts from others, recruiting monkeys as labors and bossing around. Haha. Oh yeah, and marrying a stick figure? Darn hilarious!

BEST MOMENTS:

1. Any scene with Melman. I don't like Ross in Friends, but I love Melman. David Schwimmer's voice is PERFECT for Melman! I think Melman's sweet. Ouhh, I probably love his character because I've been wanting a giraffe? Huhu.
2. The scene where Moto Moto submerged from the water. Darn, he was cracking me up with his macho moves! Or so he thought! Haha!!
3. Having to see Alex being beaten pretty mean-ly by an OLD lady!!
4. When Melman was telling Moto Moto off how to treat Gloria the right way. Gosh, Melman, you're SHUUU-WITTTT!!!! (And she loves orchid. Aaaaaahhhh....)
5. When King Julien thinks he brought the water back! LOL. Superstitious!
6. The scene where Zuba joined in to dance with Alex in the jungle, surrounded by New Yorkers and a really MEAN granny! You kick ass granny!
7. Any moment that cracked me up. Apparently, too many to even recall now. Huhu.
   

BORING MOMENTS:

1. Can't think of any!! Hehe.

I'd give this movie a 4.15 out of 5. Haha. A 2 decimal rating system introduced by a dear friend, Nok. It's a good movie for anyone who needs a good laugh. Oh yeah, the soundtracks were awesome too.

Worthy of the money you pay (especially when it's not yours). Lalala~

Lagi Lagi Birthday

Aku tau rakan-rakan Sepeket sedang menanti post ni. Tau korang masuk blog ni cari samada aku dah upload belum kad siber itu. Huhu. Maaf la lewat. Smlm lupa mau copy kad tu ke pendrive, jd tak dapat blogging dr umah.


Time kasih yer kepada yang design kad ni, Encik Nabil dan Cik Peej. Tapi, aku rs tenaga kerahan pasti lebih banyak datang dari Encik Nabil! Wakakaka!!~

Yang menang moto tu, Bit dan Cik Pin. Haha. Kantoi! Kad original tu, takde pakai simbol CENSORED tu. Aku saje tepek kat muka aku tu. Kalu nak tengok yang original, tengok kat sini la yer. Alaaa, bukan aku tak penah post pic aku kat blog ni pun. Ader je.. Cuma korang kene kerja keras sket jek utk cari! Hehe.

Apapun, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Cik Pin, adik aku kat UUM tu, dan Ugly Betty (artis itu? bkn. rujuk post ini).

FACEBOOK dan PENGASIH

Seperti tiada kaitan kan? Tapi ia punya kaitan yang sangat bererti untuk aku.

Bermulanya aku berjinak-jinak dengan Facebook gara-gara seorang lelaki. Beliau memang lelaki yg spesel. Siapa? Beliau residen PENGASIH. Jadi, beliau adalah spesel kerana aku sayang semua residen PENGASIH. (Ingat, residen SAHAJA. Staf aku tak layan sangat. Haha.) Eh jap, beliau itu suda naik pangkat jadik staf! Erk. Layannnnn~

Asalnya, aku hanya aktif main Friendster. Aku tak pernah berminat mau buka akaun Facebook. Tapi setelah kene invite ngan beliau ni, aku jadi excited la plak kan. Haha. Kerana sayang ku kepada residen PENGASIH, aku pun bukak la akaun Facebook.

Bila dah bukak akaun Facebook tu, aku terus buat terjah edisi dunia siber. Mula la aku bermain mesej dengan beliau. Bertanyakan khabar, memberi semangat dan sokongan moral. Yer, aku memang budak baik. Haha. Tapi, seperti yang aku dah kata berkali-kali dalam post ni, aku sayang mereka. Jadi aku akan terus bagi sokongan moral kepada mereka. Kalau mereka sudah tamat terapi di PENGASIH, aku mau mereka mulakan hidup baru. Tinggalkan kawan-kawan yang memberi mereka aura negatif. Cari kawan seperti aku yang sentiasa beraura wangi, eh, maksud aku, positif. Hehe.

Pernah sekali aku terserempak dengan bekas residen PENGASIH kat KL Sentral. Beliau sudah mula menunjukkan penambahan berat badan. Bagus tu! Dan ketika itu, beliau sedang promosikan syarikat baru beliau. Wow. Aku amat bangga dengan kamu Encik Z! Walaupun aku kureng sket dengan keegoan kamu ketika di PENGASIH, tp biarlah ego itu jugak yang menjadi kekuatan kamu untuk mulakan hidup baru, ok?

Berbalik kepada kisah Facebook. Ya, aku dah lama tak bukak Facebook. Sehingga lah beberapa hari lepas. Al-kisahnya, aku dapat komen kat Friendster dari seorang lagi residen (kini staf) PENGASIH. Beliau ajak aku jadi crew untuk program Ahad akan datang ini. Aku sudah reply beliau di Friendster, tapi takde respon gak. Aper ni Encik Player, mau aku jadi crew ke tidak?? Jadi, aku pun bukak la Facebook, kot2 lelaki spesel itu pulak ader tulis kat Wall dia ke. Jap, jap, aku nak bagi nama kat lelaki spesel ni kerana beliau BUKAN 'teman-tapi-mesra' aku. Haha. Panggil Encik Ed ya? Hehe.

Encik Ed takde cakap aper2 kat Wall dia. Takpe lah, kalu ada masa dan kaki, aku pegi jugak terjah Titiwangsa Ahad ni. Jadi, aku godek2 lah Facebook beliau sebentar walaupun aku taktau aper yang aku tekan. Facebook ni application je hebat, tapi usability fail ye rakan-rakan! Dah tu, aku jumpa plak dua orang lagi residen PENGASIH dalam list kengkawan Encik Ed ni. Eh, eh, apsal peluk-peluk plak 2 org nih?? WOW. Mereka sudah berkawen rupanya!! Waaaaaaaaaa.... AKU SGT SGT GEMBIRA UTK MEREKA!!!! Akhirnya, H dan Ugly Betty sudah berkawen!!! Oh, bg imaginasi rakan-rakan, Ugly Betty ni cantek yer rakan-rakan. Hehe.

Rasa gembira tak terhingga. Aku rs sangat seronok bila aku tau residen2 PENGASIH ni mengambil jalan yang betul bila tamat terapi. Kadang-kadang aku terpikir untuk kembali ke PENGASIH. Ya, aku juga ketagihan. Ketagihan kasih sayang. Aku taktau kenapa tempat itu memberi aku impak yang sangat kuat, walaupun aku hanya menjalani praktikal di sana. Thanks Abg Fizi, sbb biar aku lalui hari2 sebagai seorang residen ketika di PENGASIH. Suatu jenis praktikal yang budak2 U lain takkan rasa! Ternyata, terapi komuniti bukan untuk penagih dadah sahaja, terapi ini sesuai untuk sesiapa sahaja yang mahu kehidupan yang lebih baik. Aku belajar sangat byk dari praktikal tu. Sebagai permulaan, untuk menjadi manusia. Manusia yang punya perasaan. Tak faham? Takpe, aku tau rakan-rakan PENGASIH faham perasaan itu. Biar aku kongsi perasaan itu dengan mereka sahaja. Sesungguhnya, mereka juga famili aku. (Dan aku kan terus cari mereka di Facebook kerana nampak gaya, mereka lagi suka tgk buku sekarang ni! Haha)


P/S: Adik, kamu kat mane sekarang? Thanks sebab sudi tandatangan kad itu. Serius, aku nangis bila nampak tandatangan kamu. Kamu tau aku marahkan kamu kan? Sebab aku kecewa kamu lari ketika itu. Aku punya harapan yang besar terhadap kamu. Jangah hampakan aku. Please?

Kasih Sahabat Lebih Bererti?

CULEK.
GEMAS – kenapa?
Tolong aku. Aku mahu bangkit.
Sakit lagi ke? Tak jugak.
Aku sudah punya kawan baru. Mereka bantu aku bangun.
Lebih mudah membenci? Sudah tentulah.
Tapi aku tak kisah sayang. Walaupun ia sangat sakit.
Tak perlu sayang. Benci sahaja.
Wajarkah? Tiada ketenangan di situ.
Jadi, kamu mahu terus menangis? Keseorangan?
Tak mahu. Aku mahu cari pengalaman hidup.
Aku tak mahu ia terhenti di sini. Tak guna kan?
Ahh. Pandang kiri, pandang kanan. Dia tiada juga.
Biarlah aku gerak ke situ. Ramai kawan ku sedang menanti.
Mereka lebih sayangkan aku.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIT!!!
Thanks for being a good friend. And I will be yours too.

Ouhh. Bicara hati tiada arah tuju. Haha.

Open Source CMS

What is a good open source CMS to build an interactive portal to share files, upload/download files, has a discussion board (forum), multiple sections and sub-menus, and has a blog-like content?

I've just got a domain that I am planning to share with my friends, to build a portal for the Cognitive Science community, especially for all those who are struggling to understand or even define Cognitive Science.

I know my way around Joomla, but I am still open to try out other types of open source CMS. Or perhaps I should code my own?? That's going to be difficult, but GOOD for my portfolio eh? Hmmm..

A Day Late

Erm, isn't that the same title as a song by Anberlin? Hmmm..

Anyway, I turned a year older (and hopefully wiser) yesterday. Ahaa. Thanks to my family and friends who called and had sent me sms to remind me that I am getting older and the time has come to get a boyfriend, bla bla. Haha.

I started my day by getting some fresh air. Intended to jog, but erm, Bit, those lil kids has NO IDEA about jogging, do they?? Haha. Well, I don't mind all that because what's more important is being with friends, and having a good laugh. And thanks for the blackforest cake. Mmuaahh~

I don't mean to sound pathetic or anything here, but I am not a person who gets many gifts for her birthday. Really. I remember a few birthday gifts though. Like the necklace my cousins bought me last year. It was very beautiful, and when I wear it, friends thought that it's a gift from a boyfriend. Huhu.

This time around, hmmmm... I think the cake can be considered as a gift right? I'm not grumbling, really. Because I've always told myself that the best gift is not given. It's when I make someone happy, like Stella's boyfriend who was at one point, became much more emo than I am. And UNICEF. Yes, UNICEF, United Nations Children's Fund. Yesterday, I went to Midvalley where UNICEF had a booth, and I have signed up to the Direct Debit Donor Programme (DDDP), a donation drive launched by UNICEF to help support programmes that focuses on education, child protection and fighting AIDS/HIV. By pledging only RM38 monthly which is done through a standing instruction from my bank account, I think I can make someone else happy too. A pat on my back.

To spoil myself and to get myself a birthday gift, I went looking for a giraffe in Sunway Pyramid today. No, not a REAL giraffe, a soft toy. I want to replace Bonggo and Kokobe. Those two, are teddy bears. This time, I want something different. If I couldn't get a giraffe, I'll get something else to hug, but not teddies. Perhaps, Patrick Starfish? or Mr Burton! Ahaa. I'll hunt again next week! I'm not desperate for one, so it could take some time before I get a nice one to cuddle at night. Hehe~

Looking forward for Madagascar 2!!!

November Babies

A few days ago, I was in a training room and feeling sleepy when I started making a list of friends and families who will be celebrating (or has celebrated) his/her birthday which falls in the month of November. I have wished a few of them, and a handful more to wish in the next few weeks of November. It’s a long one.

1/11 – Catherina, my ex-colleague.
3/11 – Shih Li, my pen pal from the days where we correspond through letters and cards!
5/11 – Baby cousin, Adeeb!! You’re a year older yet naughtier! Happy Birthday!!
7/11 – Matt, NO comment is needed. Pik Chai, ex-roomate. Damn nerdy. Still is. Haha.
8/11 – ?? I kinda remember someone’s birthday on this date… Who aahhh…
11/11 – See Keat, miss you during Diwali. Huhu.
12/11 – Kak Zatul, she will be celebrating her 1st birthday as a wifey!!
13/11 – Bit, Sepeket.
14/11 – Pini, Sepeket. And my sis, aku kasik ko present 2hb Disember, as requested.
15/11 – Yoe, indigenious chick. Miss your thick accent.
18/11 – Eny, ex-coursemate. No where to be found now. Haha.
25/11 – Diraj, great cousin, love the attitude!
27/11 – Aunty PJ, no comment as well.
30/11 – Ammar, you need a COLOURED SHIRT.

I could not come up with a better card, my apologize all. Have a great biological year ahead~

Bummer

I had a Nightmare
Yes. Last night. And I hated it so much. I dreamt of YOU. The YOU who I once kept so close to my heart. The YOU I am determined to forget in November. And that YOU came into my dream, smiled at me, held my hand and walked with me. No, it won't happen in the real world. It was just a dream, I am reminded.

I had a post yesterday, today it's GONE
It was titled "How to BE emo and GET OUT of it". I posted it yesterday, here in this blog. Today, it's GONE. What happened to it?? It's not in my draft, it's not anywhere! Who is answerable to my lost post?? I am beginning to think that someone is seriously hacking my accounts. First, my Fileden account, now my blog? I don't know. I love making assumptions. It calms me down to know it's not my fault...perhaps.

I have an abusive file reported in 4shared.com
I uploaded Straylight Run - Existentialism On Prom Night in my 4shared.com folder, to share with the rest of the world. And today, I saw the file in a folder named as 'Abuse'. The error message I get, "This file is no longer available because it's identical to file banned because of claim." Hmm.. never happened before, but it just did, now.

The Birthday Reminder
That I DO NOT NEED. I was reminded by someone about another someone's birthday. Seriously dude, like I care about his birthday. He doesn't care about us here. Even if I DO remember, it makes no difference. I do not wish to WISH him.

Hoping for a good day till tomorrow night, the day before I get a year older. To start fresh the following day - by going for a jog - with Sepeket!!

NO MORE BUMMERS till then, please!!

A Letter to Abang

Dear Abang,

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate you upon the many nominations that you have received to be the next best man. I am proud of you. You have proven to a particular servant that he is no contest to you. Now that you will take over Uncle Doul’s fame, I’d like to propose that your fame to be put into good use.

To begin with, I’d like you to take this few morons and submit their names for National Service. You see, they are still bugging me every morning with the cab issue, and especially yesterday, when the train is incapable of handling too many slim and cute commuters like me. Perhaps you can send them to Cahaya Gemilang camp in Cherating. My sister told me that it’s a good place to get a stripped tan. Furthermore, there hasn’t been any death case reported at the camp. Therefore, it is essential to send the morons there so that history can be made.

Abang, I would also be very appreciative if you could also reward Datukship to this one guy I met in the train. Yes, I was very attracted to him. In fact,, he spoke right into my ear the words I long to hear. Oh, you want to know what he said? Well, he said, “S**t. Great. This is just great! Thank you government!” Praise the Lord government, he did. Therefore, I believe he deserves the Datukship as he has recognized the government for providing an astonishing train service yesterday. Well, I don’t mind another jammed commuter door when I get to hear praises like this everyday! Certainly wouldn’t mind that we had to stop at the next station due to the jammed door too! He was such a heartthrob, so much younger and so much more drama than Shah Rukh Khan! Please, please give him the Datukship, okay?

I want to ask for more, but I am reminding myself that I should not make anymore Pepsi advertisement. I have done many advertisements and I am sick of doing another. Therefore, I will stop here and let you settle the issues I have addressed before I can make another Pepsi advertisement.

Oh ya, please pretend that you have NEVER CAME ACROSS this letter as I am worried for my LIFE. I do not want to be used as a target of the meriam buluh your kids use to play during Raya. Neither do I want your orang gaji to be accused of causing my death pushing me down the stairs and breaking a bone or two.

Thank you Abang, for looking into this letter and may you not turn your head the other way like you always do. Because either way, you ARE balding.

Your kiut sayang,
Atreyu Strange

P/S: No, I am NOT complaining.
Post P/S: Tell her I won't whitemail you. I'm too afraid of the meriam buluh I saw at your gate.

Emo Playlist??

I think people who cares to read this blog is getting tired of my emo-ness! It's NEVERENDING! I can't even DEFINE emo anymore. Yikes.

But like I've mentioned before, my emo-ness gives me good inspiration. And I am ready to take one step ahead. Of everything. Of caring. Of loving. Of life. Of my emo-ness. Erk~


November will be a good month to start. It's the month with most birthday celebration I know of! Bit, Cik Pin, Yoe, Catherina, my sister, my beloved cousin brother, bla bla, we all share one birthday month - NOVEMBER!!

And to start with getting AHEAD with my emo-ness, here's my EMO playlist. And NO, it's NOT downloadable. And it only consist of Straylight Run. I love their songs. Too bad they don't do good recordings these days.

1. Straylight Run - Existentialism On Prom Night
2. Straylight Run - Your Name Here (Sunrise highway)
3. Straylight Run - Sympathy for the Martyr