Four Months

Everytime I decide to write a decent entry, it will always be followed by an emo post. I don't know why. It's as though my life cannot run from being emotionally distracted. Only yesterday I felt really good in 2 weeks after so much conflict, today I am haunted by my past.

The EX BOYFRIEND is back...

Yes. And this time, I DID NOT INTEND to awaken my past relationship.

So why did he come back after 4 months of silence? He said, he had waited for too long for my apology. Excuse me, but if you HAD BEEN reading my blog, you should know by now the reason why I do not want to be apologetic.

You know, you're so lucky that I replied your text message this morning. And you're also lucky that I picked up your phone call this morning.

You NEVER replied my message before. You NEVER picked up my phone calls before. You've made your point well - you wanted OUT. You wanted to forget me. You were throwing me away from your life. And I understood your signals. And I raised my flags. (It wasn't white by the way. That's just too feminine!)

But today, you said I read your signals wrongly. You were ALL ALONG waiting for the word "I'm sorry" and everything will be back to normal. Well, I am sorry now that I have misread your signals. And I am sorry that I am moving on.

I wished you birthday. I wished you festive. You didn't wish my birthday. You didn't wish my festive. What should I think of you then?

I feel bad that I have not waited for you to this day. I am sure you are hurt. MUCH MORE hurt right now. But you have sent me all the wrong signals. Signals that you HATE me. And it struck me two months ago, to move on because there weren't any point hanging by a moment of silence. I never heard from you...

FOUR MONTHS, is bloody too long. Anymore love left? I beg to differ. (I hope)


* I'd like to remain friends with all my exes. It's called guilty conscious. Ahaa.
* It is exactly four months today.
* I wonder why there's no one at the badminton court today. I miss my wake up calls to the sound of the shuttlecock!
* Nevermind the wake up call, I did not sleep well anyway.
* I'm adding a new label called 'Emo'. Heh.